“A verbal argument ensued and Brown pulled the vehicle over on an unknown street, reached over Robyn F. [Rhianna] with his right hand, opened the car door and attempted to force her out. Brown was unable to force Robyn F. out of the vehicle because she was wearing a seat belt. When he could not force her to exit, he took his right hand and shoved her head against he passenger window of the vehicle, causing an approximate one-inch raised circular contusion.

[She] turned to face Brown and he punched her in the left eye with his right hand. He then drove away in the vehicle and continued to punch her in the face with his right hand while steering the vehicle with his left hand. The assault caused Robyn F.’s mouth to fill with blood and blood to splatter all over her clothing and the interior of the vehicle.

Brown looked at Robyn F. and stated, ‘I’m going to beat the sh— out of you when we get home! You wait and see!’ “

The detective said “Robyn F.” then used her cell phone to call her personal assistant Jennifer Rosales, who did not answer. Robyn F. pretended to talk to her and stated, ‘I’m on my way home. Make sure the police are there when I get there.’ After Robyn F. faked the call, Brown looked at her and stated, ‘You just did the stupidest thing ever! Now I’m really going to kill you!’

Brown resumed punching Robyn F. and she interlocked her fingers behind her head and brought her elbows forward to protect her face. She then bent over at the waist, placing her elbows and face near her lap in [an] attempt to protect her face and head from the barrage of punches being levied upon her by Brown. [He] continued to punch Robyn F. on her left arm and hand, causing her to suffer a contusion on her left triceps (sic) that was approximately two inches in diameter and numerous contusions on her left hand.

Brown pulled Robyn F. close to him and bit her on her left ear. She was able to feel the vehicle swerving from right to left as Brown sped away. He stopped the vehicle in front of 333 North June Street and Robyn F. turned off the car, removed the key from the ignition and sat on it. [He] did not know what she did with the key and began punching her in the face and arms. He then placed her in a head lock positioning the front of her throat between his bicep and forearm. Brown began applying pressure to Robyn F.’s left and right carotid arteries, causing her to be unable to breathe and she began to lose consciousness.

She reached up with her left hand and began attempting to gouge his eyes in an attempt to free herself. Brown bit her left ring and middle fingers and then released her. While Brown continued to punch her, she turned around and placed her back against the passenger door. She brought her knees to her chest, placed her feet against Brown’s body and began pushing him away. Brown continued to punch her on the legs and feet, causing several contusions.

Robyn F. began screaming for help and Brown exited the vehicle and walked away. A resident in the neighborhood heard Robyn F.’s plea for help and called 911, causing a police response. Brown sent a text message nine days later apologizing.

In the text message, Brown apologized for what he had done to Robyn F. and advised [Rihanna’s assistant] Ford that he was going to get help.”

- The police report details from Chris Brown’s assault on Rihanna (Source)

I don’t think I have to explain why this bothers me so much.  

Did his punishment fit the crime? Absolutely not. 

Did he learn that his actions have consequences? Absolutely not.

Will he do this again, to another woman? Absolutely.

Was his performance at the Grammy’s designed to make us forget what he did?  It makes me sick, and reading the tweets and facebook statuses of girls around the world that condone this behavior makes me physically ill. 

It is not ok. 

(Source: realrealsoft)

Anonymous asked: if you feel so guilty why don't you speak out about what happened to you? it may actually help other people and since you are one that actually got away and are in a good relationship now i think other women would feel hope if you shared.

I’m not entirely sure why this upsets me so much.  I think maybe I thought that if he were punished this time it would make me feel as if he were punished for what he did to me.  Or, maybe I thought it would absolve me from some of the guilt I feel for not pressing charges and feeling directly responsible for someone else being put through this hell.  

My heart is heavy, it feels like someone is stepping on my chest. I feel angry, and close to tears from frustration with myself, the system, and him.  This is not right. I am certain that he will do this again, and I know that someone else will have to experience his violence, and for that I am sorry.

He should have been found guilty, but I am the one who feels the guilt.