12
Jan
Guilty
I’m not entirely sure why this upsets me so much. I think maybe I thought that if he were punished this time it would make me feel as if he were punished for what he did to me. Or, maybe I thought it would absolve me from some of the guilt I feel for not pressing charges and feeling directly responsible for someone else being put through this hell.
My heart is heavy, it feels like someone is stepping on my chest. I feel angry, and close to tears from frustration with myself, the system, and him. This is not right. I am certain that he will do this again, and I know that someone else will have to experience his violence, and for that I am sorry.
He should have been found guilty, but I am the one who feels the guilt.
